I recommend prayerful reflection and encourage you to pause and acknowledge how serious following Jesus is and that it is not to be taken lightly. He demands things from you to serve with Him. If He didn't He wouldn't be much of a leader and certainly not a good one. The closer you get to Him the more He will equip you to do what He asks but He wants you to give your life completely over to Him. He has said “...he who loses his life for my sake will find it…”
That demands action. If you are ready to act and continue to be a doer and not just a hearer of the word I implore you to continue reading but if you're not ready to commit, I recommend waiting until you have time to reflect and be drawn back to God. It is pointless to give only part of yourself to Him; he wants all of you He doesn't offer to save part of you. Consider the following words of Jesus and decide which way you will walk.
… Enter by the narrow gate. For the gate is wide and the way is easy that leads to destruction, and those who enter by it are many. For the gate is narrow and the way is hard that leads to life, and those who find it are few…
Will you be among those who follow Jesus completely?